I have this week and next week left of the summer holidays and i’m fucking bored and friendless.
I want to move somewhere where no one knows me and I can make friends with people that actually go out and talk to you in the holidays. That don’t shrug and look down when someone is taking the piss out of then. That doesn’t hide their homework from the teacher in the school canteen because they are embarrassed.
I like my friends i do and this is the first time I have had proper friends that don’t take the piss out of me (not all the time anyway) but I just wish they were more real (their not fake) but i wish that I could just talk to people that are not my mum who just speak their mind and don’t sugarcoat anything.
I am going back to school in Y9 and am going to not give a flying fuck.
OK I said that last year but did but this year I don’t have the energy to care anymore…..ok crap I’m starting to literally cry as I type this so need to breath a sec………
I need to work on this not crying thing cause I cry to often…..
It’s not like I don’t appreciate my life it’s just that I don’t wan’t my life exactly this way…
I wish I could afford new clothes right now
I need a pair of trainers
I don’t need a shitload of clothes just some new decent ones like a couple of pairs of jeans a pair of trainers and a few polo’s/t-shirts and a jacket and a belt (really need that) and then just other stuff which is kind of private and I think I won’t name that actually.
Ok I’m going to go and clean out my wardrobe now and get some stuff of my checklist which BTW I updated and now the songs on their are by Jake Bugg who is fucking awesome BTW!!!
….Oh and I need my eyebrows threaded…
….Oh and I have never told you my name have I? yeah I hate it……It’s Destiny…..I know KMN and I actually changed it to that….need to change it to something normal….